so you know that moment when you realize someone just isnt who they used to be? i never thought it’d be a bigger deal than a realization. idk if thats exactly what i mean, im not sure how to say it. but ive never been so bent out of shape about missing the old someone. it hurts to think my relationship is over, and i feel like i won’t be happy unless i’m with him, but seeing who he’s trying to be, or maybe who hes become outside of a relationship really makes me question if i wanna be with him. its not attractive. the way he’s acting i mean. but at what point is it no longer acting? like how am i supposed to decipher when you’re tryna be cool versus when you’re being real? i just wanna be over it, but i cant stop thinking about it. im just conflicted. i dont wanna be single. i dont wanna be with anyone else. i dont wanna start over. i dont wanna build up trust with a new person. i dont wanna go through the process of getting to know every part of someone. i dont want to feel like im a stranger in my relationship, or that im with a stranger. i just dont want anything but what i had. its not fair that one person gets to make a decison that has to do with two. at the end of the day an agreement needs to be what things settle in; how you making a decision on MY behalf? if we’re a union we come together and figure things out.